Friday, August 11, 2006

illnesses and accidents

oh man i could write all day on this topic!

My family is so accident prone! so much so that we were once invited to a bbq and as joke everyone at the bbq dressed up in bandages and slings and had crutches and a variety of medical supplies on the tables in our honor! very embarrassing!

The shortened list of our accidents includes: Me - broken toe and 3 bones in my arms (at different times) - Younger brother chris - broken sternum, arm, leg and chipped kneecap - younger brother ben- broken arm and reconstructive surgery on his ankle - younger sister michela - very badly broken arm (needed surgery) - Younger brother Joel- has somehow escaped broken bones but had to have a hernia operation last year. And these are just the major things!

Jira and i have both had alot of car accidents but none of them have been our fault! Nam has been hit from behind 3 times in 3 years! Once our dog khodi was in the car with him. Luckily she was in the back so she hit the back of the drivers seat and fell onto the car floor, but if shed been in the front seat she probably would have gone through the windscreen. ive had a few cases of minor whiplash and some very attractive bruises that looked like hickeys from the seat belt!

On the illness side our family doesnt fare too well either. Most of you probably know i lost my dad to cancer when i was 17, but i also lost my maternal grandfather and my paternal grandmother to cancer in the last few years as well. I dont think ill ever fully come to terms with losing my dad so young. It breaks my heart every time i think of him never meeting Jira, him not being there to watch us grow up or him not being able to meet his grandkids. Tho on a positive note i feel his presence quite alot. Not in the freaky ghost sense or anything but whenever something really good happens i feel like he somehow helped create that moment. And when times are hard i believe that he is watching over me and wont let anything that i cant handle happen. I think in a way when he died i hated god so much for taking him that i replaced god with my dad. And while i dont hate god anymore, i stopped going to church after he died. Its only been in the past couple of years that ive gone to church occassionally. I do want to go on a regular basis but somehow i never end up going. Not sure why because i actually think it would be good for me. Sorry for going a bit off topic there!


glynis said...

Don't apologize for getting 'off-track'! Isn't that what journaling is all about--getting things you're thinking about down on paper? or on cyber paper? :) And seriously, I can't imagine what losing a parent is like and to be so young must have been difficult, but it's good that you still feel his presence.

Zephanee said...

Losing something you love so much is very hard to handle. I was like you in that I lost touch with God after losing someone I cared deeply about. I've never gone back to church since. I still pray on occasion, but the connection just isn't there for me anymore. It's been 5 years and it's still very difficult for me to think about getting back with God.

Bonnie said...

James 1:13 "When under trial, let no one say: “I am being tried by God.” For with evil things God cannot be tried nor does he himself try anyone."
1 John 4:8"God is love".
I am sorry you lost your dad so young, but God is not to blame for such things. He is a God of love and does not take human life. Many people have these misconceptions. Rather one needs to look deeper to see that there are reasons for the terrible world conditions, for death and suffering and sickness.