For those that are partially blind like i am, heres the journalling a bit bigger :
Funny, if you'd asked me a month ago, I would have happily told you that i wantedbaby stuff for christmas. A cot, a car seat, a rocking chair, , , , all the big stuff. Now, after experiencing thepain of losing a baby, being diagnosed with a molar pregnancy,and facing months of ongoing tests to ensure i dont get cancer, all i want for christmas is my health. And happiness. I want to be the girl in the photo again. Yea sure, i smile and laugh, and still do all the same things i did when this photo was taken, but underneath it, im scared. Scared of getting sick or dying, scared of never being able to have a baby, scared of what thefuture might bring. I try to be positive, but sometimes its justso hard, especially knowing that this will be hanging over my head for at least a year. I know with time, it will get easier and eventually the fear willnot be so bad. So some strength, some happiness and a whole lotta health is all i want this year. Next year, ill ask for the baby.
Thanks to Kimberly and Darlene for letting me use their new christmas kits - Kimberly's (aka fishinmom designs) is called "snofolks" and Darlenes is called "vintage christmas". You can get em both in their DSO stores! They come highly reccomended by me!